It’s been a long road to get to you and in all reality you are still so far away.
If I'm going to be honest with you, and I pray I always am, this whole process of becoming a family has been unexpectedly surreal and painfully hard. Your father and I didn’t have a magical moment where we heard Jesus tell us to adopt and we didn’t see your photo and know you were our children.
But we want you.
We’ve wanted you for years and we will continue to want you, because we are choosing you and we promise we will continue to choose you.
The process leading up to our decision was a journey through a dry desert that began years ago.
And then there you were. We sought Jesus night and day and begged for the right answer, because, you see little ones, for the first time in our lives, the outcome of our decision did not only affect us. It affects you. And we fiercely want the absolute best for you.
And you know what Jesus, our sweet, sweet Jesus whispered to your daddy one summer night?
Jesus told your daddy that He wants to bless him, not because of his choices or adoption but because He is good and He loves us.
My loves, we have learned over the years that God’s blessings and unfathomable love does not always mean easy or happiness. We often find that God takes us down arduous paths in order to strip us of anything we exchange for intimacy with our Heavenly Father. Knowing Christ, receiving His sacrifice and experiencing His Spirit are the absolute best things your father and I have ever experienced.
And so, because of God’s great love and incredible imagination, He gave us emotions. Emotions that go unchecked can be misleading and pull us towards a life of self gratification. When we follow our desires over what God desires we start believing this will lead to our happiness, but your father and I have found that isn’t always the case.
Children, we have met Jesus in the broken and hard parts of life. We have met Him face to face when we are surrendering our desires and seeking to follow His path for our lives.
I tell you this, my beloveds, because we know the path ahead is going to be hard but we want to make you this vow:
The way we were led to you, by seeking Jesus and trusting His goodness, is the same way we will continue to pursue you, even through the pain. We will daily strive to lay down our lives to serve you, but we know we will often fail. We know you have suffered and experienced sorrow in ways we will never know, and that completely rips our hearts out, but we will always show up and walk with you as you learn to find your identity in Christ. We know this whole family thing is going to be hard for you. We know it is not natural to be adopted, we know there can be pain in looking different than your parents. But we pray that in the hard struggles of becoming a family and the difficult parts of your lives that you find true intimacy with Jesus.
We grieve with you. God grieves with you. But He is there. We are here. We want you and we choose you. It’s going to be a long road, but one we will walk together.
“God knows how much I love you and long for you with tender compassion of Christ. I pray that your love will keep on growing in knowledge and understanding. For I want you to understand what really matters, so that you may live pure and blameless lives until the day of Christ’s return. My you always be filled with the fruit of your salvation, the righteous character produced in your life by Jesus, for this will bring much glory and praise to God.” Philippians 1: 8-11